Teri
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about being the hands and feet of Jesus.
What does it mean to do His will on earth as it is done in Heaven?
I’ve been pondering what that looks like lived out in real life; gritty, messy, unforgiving, and often complicated real life.
Lately, there is a verse that has really been reverberating through my heart…
““Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father.” John 14:12
I believe this to be true…for today…for me in Christ…right now..
Yet…do I?
Three weeks ago, I felt God leading me to pray for a young woman who was using a cane. I thought God wanted me to pray for her dreams and passions; just like I do so often. NOPE. On the way over to her, I felt God tell me, “Pray for her healing.“
I freaked. I bailed. I left the woman standing there with her cane, just as she was, not healed.
This little episode revealed something pretty dark and disgusting hidden in my heart. Yea…I’m a skeptic when it comes to healing.
My friend Betty Means said it best in her blog post:
I believe in miraculous healings. I’ve seen them. I’ve heard stories from people I trust. So that’s not my problem. My problem is believing that I’m “good enough” for God to use me to bring it into existence. There’s a fear that I “can’t do it right”. And I become tentative. I know all sorts of things about my identity and authority in Christ – but in this area, it’s been hard for me to move from “knowing it” to “doing it”.
Just like Betty, I’ve seen miraculous healing. Heck – I’ve been instantly healed of a broken toe. Instantly! One minute I was in excruciating pain. My friends prayed. The next minute I got up and danced.
I was also instantly healed of a sprained ankle.
Lily’s been miraculously healed.
Yet, I don’t think I will do it right. I’ll hose it up. And then where will the poor person be who allowed me to pray for them?
It’s just too much pressure.
I’m good to talk about dreams and passions and God-given calling. But healing? Nah… I’ll leave that to the really faithful folks.
Yeah…I know it’s a cop-out.
But, I’m still freaked out about it.
At AIM, miraculous healing happen more often than in most places. I wouldn’t say it is common. I wouldn’t say it is uncommon.
There was a story last week of a young man at the World Race training camp (see video below – you can see he is still blown away and a bit in shock.).
He walked in needing hearing aids to carry on a conversation. He worshiped and praised, then his friends prayed for him, and then could take off his hearing aids and hear. It’s not total healing yet, but there was a substantial improvement.
I know these people. I trust these people. I’m sure this happened just as they say.
I’m beginning to wonder why I don’t believe Jesus can heal through my prayers?
Why don’t I pray for each and every person God lays on my heart? Was he teasing when he said for those who believe they will do great works? Was that just a joke? Or truly only for the first couple of thousand Christians but not for those of us 2,000 years later?
People need to see the love and compassion of Jesus just as much today as they did then.
Lord, help my unbelief!
And, please heal that young woman I left standing in Walmart.
And, help us all have the faith to expect the miraculous.
May the healing begin…
“When he went ashore he saw a great crowd, and he had compassion on them and healed their sick.” Matthew 14:14















